Ten More Days Before the Move to Spain: Let the Panic Begin!

Ten days! I only have ten days to cram my life into boxes and suitcases and get myself and my family on a plane bound for Spain. To say I have officially entered the panic mode would be an understatement.

The Panic is Real

I fall asleep worrying about what I have to do the next day. I wake up with my heart pounding in my chest. Sometimes, in the middle of the day, I have full-blown moments of “I can’t do this-itis.” And yet, and yet, there’s still a bigger part of me that just wants to get to the other side and start this new phase of my life.

Reminding Myself of My Why

I am continuously reminding myself of my why. And the universe, with her sly self, keeps reminding me that this has been a dream of mine forever. Case in point; When I was cleaning out my office this past weekend, I found a folder with some of my earliest writing samples. Hidden in between the pages of clips from glossy magazines, I found a short story I’d written called, “Bound for Barcelona.” It was a simple story about a Black writer who was preparing to upend her life, leave New York City behind so she could move to Spain to work on her second novel. The main character – who was obviously me – was taking one more walk around her beloved Brooklyn delighting in the lovely weather in May. The next day she was bound for Barcelona!

Manifesting the Move to Spain

Did I manifest this move? Have I been slowly building to this moment? I have to think yes, when I see all of the breadcrumbs I’ve dropped for myself throughout this lifetime.

So, as I look at my To-Do list that has eleventy-million things on it, and as I suffer through my racing nerves, and while I recite reassuring missives to my children, I remind myself, I asked for this. I wanted this. I imagined this life for my future and that future is now.

Follow My Journey

If you want to follow along with me as I continue on with my journey to Spain, feel free to follow me on IG @LoriLTharps and of course, I will continue to post here as well …if I’m not in the middle of a panic attack! Advice for staying calm during a major life transition is always welcome.